What is love

Is there a such thing as love?
I hear that word so many times from so many different people, but I'm curious as to what it really means to them...Everytime I think I have figured out exactly what love is or isn't someone comes into my life to show me that I truly don't know what it is... Well let me correct that saying... I know what love is, but do i know what it is for someone to truly love me... to a certin extent... I ask myself if I am worthy of love... Will true love ever come to me without me having to compermise myself? or my value??
What is love?

Sitting Still

The agony of sitting still. I hate sitting still not being able to keep moving. It seems like a punishment to me. Its when the devil is the most busiest n my life. Too much time to think and reflect on all the bad all the mistakes I've made it my life.
I've always been able to stay on da move stay on da go. Now to be forced to sit still yet again feels like a torchours punishment yet again. There's so much I could be doing but I can't stay focused long enough to do it. Too many thought bombarding my mind all at once. I feel like a computer that is in overload when I'm sitting still it eventually freezes up and you have to reboot it... I don't want to have to go through the rebooting process again its too tiresome and painful.

Do You know Your Worth

Do you know your worth, your value? How do you determine just how much I am worth? Is it my past mistakes, and flaws? Is it the potential that I might have, but am uncertin of? How do I measure my worth and value when others around me have told me I'm not worth the ground I walk on? How do I measure my value when I've always been told I'm worthless and will never amount to anything....Please tell me how...

   I'm afraid of trying cause I'm afraid of failing
I'm afraid of the future cause I don't know what lies in it
I'm afraid of love, cause I never felt worthy of it...
but most of all I'm afraid of me.....Because I don't know my worth nor my value

In Every Bad Situation

I've come to realize that in every bad situation no matter how hurtful it may be there can come a good lesson. Throughout my 22 years of living I've been in plenty of bad situations, some I placed myself into and others situations by no fault of my own.
December 17,2009 I placed myself in a bad situation and put others in a hurtful situation, but God used that bad situation and allowed a lot of good to come out of it. He allowed that situation to show me that there and still is people that genualy care about me that could and would love me no matter what mistakes I've made they would still have my back.
I have always had people say aye I got you, but in all reality when I needed them they no were to be found. I was expectin da same thing this time... But this time this time it was totally different the people who said dey had my back have had it, some people who knew nothing about me have jumped on board and been like we gonna get through dis together.
The thing I have come to realize is that God will give you what you need when you need it. Its some things I prayed for as a child that God had waited to now to answer and I come to realize that its a process we want things when we want them and how we want them, but in having to wait we learn to appreciate it more when we do get it. The father I got although not biological, the extended family, all the ones I have to talk to etc I appreciate it now cause I realize that everybody that has walked into my life these past few months have been an answer to a prayer that I prayed as a child growing up. To know what its like to have a father, to have two parents living in the same house hold, to know what true love is, to have positive people round my age to be accepted God answered those questions. So in every bad situation God will turn it around and allow something good to come out of it only if you let him...