The Young and Church

You ask what keeps people away from the church. I say it's a simple answer. It's called church folks. They so caught up in a religion that they forgot about the relationship. It's the hypocrites. Now don't get me wrong we all sin . but yet it's a huge difference between being a sinner and a down right hypocrite.
A hypocrite acts like they are the most holy of holy's they know no sin, which we all know is a lie.A sinner will admit hey I'm not perfect. What keeps a young person from church to many judges also.. You say that only God should and can judge well I guess there's more than one god out there...
People are too stuck in the same circle not really allowing people to truly open up and show who they really are. In order for a person to get and stay in church they need associates friends that's in the church. A person is going to be most influenced by the crowd they hand with and If they don't really know anybody in the church were do you thing they are going to be? On the streets with there friends.
Also, too much talk and not enough walk. Do what you say your gonna do mean what you say. You say that you will meet me where I am. It there a stipulations to that or what? If I am a dope boy or girl can you meet me on that level? If I'm a crack addict or a pill popper can you meet me there? If I am a prostitute can you meet me there? If I am suicidal can you meet me there.. Can you?? Don't be afraid of me, don't brush me off cause I do not wear the same clothes as you or the same shoes as you. Embrace me instead of running from me..
Your embracement, your kind word might be the thing that saves me. It might be the thing that will keep me from committing suicide might be the thing that brings me and keep me in the church. Some people come to church Sunday after Sunday searching for that someone who will reach out. That someone who won't be a hypocrite but will be true to there word. Are you that person that will help me get closer to God or that person that will push me too get further away from Him.

Something I need to tell you

There's something that my heart is desiring to tell you

it's ready to release this burden that's weighing on my mind

and on my heart.

But can you handle what I need to tell you?

will you walk away and never speak to me again

I know that it will greatly disappoint you,

Will you judge me if I tell you

Not knowing the answer to these questions

is killing me on the inside

I need to tell you

But I can't...

Will this be something that I will take to the grave with me?

will it be better that way rather than to cause you anymore pain

any more embarrassment....

What am I to do? How can I release this without

telling you...

Is there even a way to do that???

My Struggling Relationship with God

Every since I was a child I have struggled in relationships. Mainly my relationship with God. I have endured so much pain growing up as a child that it's hard to believe that a man that's supposed to love me so much would allow me or anyone else to go through some of the thins I have went through. Even though I have struggled with my relationship with God I still desire to know Him (God) for who He truly is. I remember always praying that I wanted to know Him (God) for myself, not from what someone else told me, but from my own relationship with Him..
Since I've moved I joined a church and it's a cool church and all, but I'm still struggling to go. I haven't really connected with anyone there because I'm quiet. This past Sunday was my first time going in a while and the preacher talked about "God's Shaking" and I cried during the whole sermon. Why because I know that message was for me I have been dealing with so much stuff from the past and truthfully it has consumed me. I am not the person I want to truly be because of the things that has held me bondage for so long. I'm to the point in my life were I am tired of struggling with my realtionship with God, it's like I either want one or I don't which in reality. I would perfer one... I know I am going to have my struggles in life and don't expect it to always be easy... But I'm ready for that new relationship. Ready for the struggle in our relationship to be over