Hurtful Relization

Today I have been in a some what depressed state. I have like I lost my best friend just down. Don't really even know where it came from. I was just driving in my car and began to feel a heavyness. To feel hurt because I felt like no one loved me, no one cares about me; but I know its not true. I have a lot of people that do love and care about me. But in feeling this way I remember something Z said to me last week that can't nobody truly love me till I love myself! Damn that hurt me and almost brought me to tears.

I can't deny it anymore I don't truly love me. I don't know if I ever have. I've been angry for so long behind no one to love me and the promblem has been I haven't loved me. In all truth and honesty I don't know how. I want people to love me and see my potiential but I don't realize it myself. I don't see the beauty within cause its covered up with clothes 3sizes to big and a hat to cover my eyes. I don't see the beauty because I've never taken the time to look in the mirror and see something beautiful. Damn what am I to do now!?!? How do I change this?!?!?! Today, I have been in a some what depressed state. I have felt like I lost my best friend just down. Don't really even know where it came from. I was just driving in my car and began to feel a heavyness. To feel hurt because I felt like no one loved me, no one cares about me; but I know its not true. I have a lot of people that do love and care about me. But in feeling this way I remember something Z said to me last week that can't nobody truly love me till I love myself! Damn that hurt me and almost brought me to tears.

I can't deny it anymore I don't truly love me. I don't know if I ever have. I've been angry for so long behind no one to love me and the promblem has been I haven't loved me. In all truth and honesty I don't know how. I want people to love me and see my potiential but I don't realize it myself. I don't see the beauty within cause its covered up with clothes 3sizes to big and a hat to cover my eyes. I don't see the beauty because I've never taken the time to look in the mirror and see something beautiful. Damn what am I to do now!?!? How do I change this?!?!?!