She has my nose wide open

  I always heard my very first boyfriend mom tell him. " She has your nose wide open", and I never knew what she ment by that. As I've gotten older and gotten in various relationships I have come to know and understand what she ment. When someone opens your nose wide open then it simply means that they are exposing you to things that you have never been exposed to. Your simply trying to inhale it all in.
   I guess you can say that about me. These past few months my nose have been wide open to a lot of things. In which many are good matter of fact great and yet a few not so great. I'mma hit on both the great and the ungreat. Relationship wise boy, It's been an on going thing. Yes truthfully she has opened my nose up to a lot of things, and I truly enjoy being around her; but in all honesty I know that she's not what I need right now. She don't understand what I mean when I say I am trying to get my life together. She showed that factor when I first told her. Well she wouldn't talk to me for almost two months. Then the other day she was on my mind so heavy so I sent her a text and told her she didn't have to respond just was checking on her well she responded. It turned out that I had been on her mind also. Well the next day it was can we chill... Dang here we go back to the same old things. But this time it's different because I am in a different role in life than I was before.
  See this time I'm in the fore front if you would say. I'm out telling my story, I'm out trying to encourage young girls to keep there head up and I'm wanting to be a mentor to others that have been or are going through the things that I have experienced in life and am currently experiencing. I'm not put out in a position in church to were I'm serving, and in doing all of these things I'm trying to do better and live better! Trust it won't be a overnight thing I know for a fact, but I'm trying my best not to do something that could damage the positive in my life. God knows it's hard...
  Okay, now there's also a "he" in my life. The one that knows how to make me smile, that knows how to give me a good time... But will "he" know and respect my boundaries?  Will "he" know and respect the change that I am desiring in my life? Is that too much to ask of any one person?
  All these things plus a few more have my nose wide open, but is it the best thing? Yes and No