I wonder

I sit here and wonder, just how long my soul will continue to be in bondage? I sit here wondering, just how long God will allow the devil to steal from me? To rob me of my joy, my peace, and even my frame of mind.
I wonder what is it different that I can do?
to get these things back that I so desire.
I sit here and wonder why me?
As I look back over my past,
I look back over all the pain and heartache that I caused to others and that others caused to me,
and I just wonder.. What was it all for?
Many people say that nothing we go through in life is a mistake.
Well if that's true. I wonder what is the purpose for all the things that I've been through, and am currently going through now in my life.
I guess only time will tell, but until then
I will continue to wonder.